Drunk

Saturday.. we go Movida to celebrate Nana'a birthday... seems more like my birthday... I was drunk for the second time in my life.. haha.. the best part is I dun even know when I am drunk.. but I think when I reach my house downstairs I am already a bit sober.. I remember keep fucking Roy.. haha.. David say I must have really hate Roy a lot cos even when I am drunk I keep scolding him Chee bye... hahaha... but who ask him keep nagging there... Best part is peep at my undies when I am drunk.. and say my panty is ugly... anyway wat he saw is my tights not panty... I will always wear tights under my dress.. and he keep disturbing me even when I am drunk.. halooo I am drunk not deaf I can still hear u.. chee bye! hahaha.... so glad I have all these frens... I can always feel save to be drunk... love ur!
Me and Babe...
Me Dionna Babe and Cher
Cher me and jo
Me Jo and Nana the birthday ger!
All my good frens for sooo long... Love ur all...!
One of my long time fren... (who promise to marry me when 30.. )
Shaun and me
Nana me and Aman
This is Santi.. one of my school days hang out fren... this is his pic with all his wife.. 5 only la... hehe...
this one only three of the five... :p
And this is Chee Bye Roy! hahahaa... Sorry Dionna but ur husband is really chee bye.. hahaha..

Jealousy

Jealousy.. why does people get jealous.. out of insecurity of oneself or the others... i believe for my case is myself... insecurity... i am always insecure.. insecure of my life my love my looks my frens and everything.. y am I so insecure? cos I am afraid of losing.. losing wat i dun know... cos we never own anything when we were born so wats there to be afraid of losing... cos we never own anything.. this is wat i always tell myself... I dun own anything.. and nothing owns me... (other then my parents who owns me cos they give me life)...
I have always thought I have understand and know how to see things lightly... to have an open mind.. cos i own nothing... but now jealousy is back to haunt me.. i ask myself.. i never own anything.. (or maybe I own too much and I am losing it one by one??) y am I feeling insecure now? Insecure cos I wan to own something? something that I long for? Afraid of losing it?
I must control myself... keep an open mind... watever will be will be... if I have a problem I have to deal with it... if its mine it will be.. if its not it will not be no matter how hard I try... (I used to be very good in this...) but the sour feeling keep creeping in to my heart.. it hurts... and I dun like the feel of it... (fuck off! go away!!)
So I must keep reminding myself... I own nothing... nothing belongs to me... nothing at all... (contradicting... haizzz...)