How sad can life be?

Yesterday I read a book "Marley & me".. A very sad book.. I simply just cried while reading the book.. Any animal lovers will surley cry after reading it.. it was such a sad book.. now I cannot imagine my life without my baby.. Lighter... She will alway be with me when ever I want.. I do not want to be the only one who makes the decision one day... I hope she live a life so long and healthy no one can imagine.. I do not want her to leave me.. at all..
How can a dog's life be around 10 yrs.. its not enought.. at least not enough for me.. I want her to be there when I am happy, sad, angry... get married.. with babies... growing old.. I want her to be wherever I am... i want her just to be with me forever....


Life most disturbing experience..

With or Without?

With boyfriend or without boyfriend does it matters? I have a friend who tell me cos I have a boyfriend so he will definately not go after me.. what is it with boyfriend? Am I not a person anymore if I have a boyfriend? I mean its not as if we really must have sex if you go after me right? I am not married and I still can choose.. If no one goes after me when I have a boyfriend then how can I choose??? Josephnie says that this kinda man is a good man cos they dun go after other person's girlfriend.. really?? If the guy don't go after the girl he like just because she have a boyfriend how would they know that they may actually be the perfect couple?? It also shows me that the guy don't really like the girl.. cos if he really like her he will still go after her right?

Trust or not to Trust???

Trust or not to trust?? I think this is a lot of things that a lot of us have been thinking..
Went to kopi with friends tonight.. we talked about this topic.. to trust or not to trust? One of my friend Ken said that he used to have a girlfriend who don't like him to go out with girls even those girls that are very long time friends... Why is that so? I think just simply his girlfriend don't trust him.. I am having the same problem too.. What is a relationship if there is no trust at all.. If everytime you go out, your partner will start questioning and start to quarrell over things that is not happening is there any meaning at all.. I mean is there really no pure friendship between a guy and a gal??? Can't two friends of the opposit sex just go out to relax, talk, shop or catch up with the old days??? I asked Ken is he also like that? If his girlfriend goes out with another guy is he ok with it? He said yes.. He said there should be trust.. there is no use being suspicious.. cos if the girl really wan to do anything funny (if she want to be f*cked).. she can do it anytime and just lied about it.. so should actually just trust each other.. I think its really true.. there is no use pondering over things that you don't know and make your own life miserable.. I mean if it happen.. it just happen.. what for think so much??? And if one does something wrong does it mean that person don't deserve to be trusted again?? Is there a second chance?? I think its natural that once you did something wrong most likely you will not be given a second chance.. it's human instinct.. Once bitten twice shy... TRUST.. a very big word.. But who in the world can really do it..?? Not a lot I think...


To trust or not to trust.. To be or not to be...

The Forgotten or juz simply STM???

Its been a long time since I last blogged.. Until recently I saw my friend's blog then I remembered that I actually have a blog! Have I totally forgotten about it or just simply STM??

Everything is fine recently other then I have stopped playing mahjong full time.. Can one really stop having passion and interest as and when they feel like it?? Yes, cos I did. Even recenly while I was playing mahjong I don't feel any passion at all.. All I did the whole night is just keep looking at the time wondering what time the game will end.. Will this happen in a realtionship also, can one lost all passion all of a sudden?? I don't know......

Relationship has always been complicated for me.. very complicated.. Everyone loves to be loved but have I ever been loved before??? After so many years nothing much has happen.. just like a very calm lake waiting for the ripple... That day my friend told me she watched a very touching show.. about a guy who really gives all for the girl he loves who he known for only a few weeks.. I just tell her " Wake up la! There is no such person in the world la! Wake up! Its just a show!" Is there anyone in the world who will really loves a person so much that he will sacrifice himself?? I don't think so..........
Relationship from friends gives me more faith... Friends.. who can live without?? Friends I have a lot... But there is always some that has a special place in our hearts.. Chermaine, Nicole & David.. they are friends that is very special in my heart we share all our feelings, thoughts, ups and downs... they are so special to me that every little things they do means a lot to me.. I love them.. i prefer to call them my "Sisters"... and I hope they love me too.. 姐妹们我爱你！


Don't walk in front of me cos i may not follow.....Don't walk behind me cos i may not lead.....Just walk beside me and be my friend.....